Drunken Confession

Inspired by a song I heard. Don't know what it's called though.

I’m lying here
But I guess it must be my lips
That are lying
To hide the start of my greatest fear
Ushering me out
Before I’m ready to be out of here
And I beg myself not to go
Wishing hard that things aren’t so
But now…

Tell me how –
Do I make it without you?
Is it something I can do?

Please just tell me how
Do I go on with my day?
When knowing you’re so far away
Off in the distant
Over the horizon

Yeah, I must confess
My self-esteem
Has seen better days
And I am a mess
Through and through
Drinking away the days
I can barely taste the gin
But somehow it’s cleansing
Like it’s –
Washing away
My sins and worries
Of tomorrow’s day

I keep this memory from the haste
Of the fast-paced life
Slipping away
Keeping these pictures
And your lips I would trace
But now –

Tell me how
Tell me how
Cause I don’t want to be lying here
Lying no more