Baby Tell Me Why

[When roads get too long
I’ll be there when
You can’t carry on

But then hear me, babe
I have to ask this
Ask myself everyday...
Yeah]

Why – please tell me
Why not me?
When you had always said
We were meant to be

I – want to tell you
I want to love you
But just like another
I saw right through you

[I tried to out run
Another dream to shatter
Another picture to burn

But I’m stuck here
Asking myself this]

Why – please tell me
Why not me?
When I have everything
Anything that you will need

Cause baby I’ve been
I’ve been lost in another dream
When my eyes are closed
One where you are with me

[Say Hae]

Yeah?

[Hah. Where's my melody?]

Still Incompleted

08.17.2010
Found this somewhere. I talk to the person who treats me like dirt more than the person who used to make me feel amazing. Kinda sucks. Just kinda.


[Roses are red
Violets are blue
Sugar is sweet
And so are you]

Now wait a minute.
That’s not right
Not the right words
I need to say to you.
--

You say
I'm beautiful
Even when I'm not

You say
All the right things
That I want to hear

To you
I’m cute
When I’m angry

I have
You to wipe away tears
And be there
Smiling with me.

And I say
These words
From my heart

I want you to stay
Here by my side

All I can really say
To you and only
I love you
Forever and always

And when days
Fade away
Into darkness with no stars
I'll have you to hold onto

My heart stops
When you look at me
One kiss from you
And damn I can't breathe

Hey Cupid

[Hey Cupid
Didn’t think she
Got me by my tie
Stuck here even longer
Without her by my side…]

Oh baby, I never knew
That even after all these months
I’d still be texting you
I know it shouldn’t be
Something that I do
But babe I just can’t help it

Cause baby, all I know
That even after all these months
I still can’t let go
Making my way around
Thinking that another you
Just can’t be found
But babe I just can’t help it

You got me runnin’ in circles
You got me runnin’ from sorrows
Everyone knows that
I’m still not over you
Every time my heart goes through
I always end up texting you

I want you here with me
But it’s not all I need
Oh baby baby, can’t you see
This is what I need
Is for you to always be
My lady~

[Hey my first girl
Won’t you be my last girl
Hey my first kiss
Won’t you be my last –
Kiss…
You’re the one I miss]

Growing Up

Too tired of listening
To fairy tales you’re whispering
Feeling too old to believe
I can’t see what you see

It doesn’t exist, nothing
As true faith and trust
No, you won’t convince
Me, that there is magic dust

Walking through the shadows
Not ready to face tomorrow
I walk past your tales
Of past and ‘afore
Reality hides in the dark
Behind these closed doors

Yet every single dream
That I try to understand
Every word, every scene
No, I just can’t understand

I’m standing in line
Waiting my turn
I’m standing behind others
Waiting for childhood to burn

It’s so hard to believe
Every line and memory
These foolish fantasies
Of what you call…
These childish stories
Oh, what you call a dream

Nightmarish Dreams

I lie awake late at night
Curled up lifelessly in my bed
Unknown to others is my mind
The thoughts running through my head
I fight to restrain them
These memories uncontained then
And you enter my life once more
The way you embraced me like before
That was then...this is now
As Poe had vowed, "Nevermore."

Feverish imagination into nightmarish dreams
I sulk down the empty halls unseen
Stealthily evading capture, hunt
From your gaze I can't outrun
I stalk down in the shadows
Prey, lost like a child
Quietly breathing, quietly living
Another minute 'til tomorrow

The scene so familiar, forgotten
Like the glow of a dying ember
Memories like an extinguished flame
And I snap back into reality again

Tick Tock Tick Tock

The clock hums its ominous sound
I pray to God that I'm not found
Your voice once so sweet to me
Now frightens whole-heartedly
It calls out "Hae, where are you?"
The only answer is my heart beating

Thud Thud Thud

I bite my tongue and go on through
"Tell me you love me...dear!"
I mutter, "Only when we were near."
I must admit, I did before
But as Poe regretted, "Nevermore."

Your footsteps fade away
To think I'm saved for another day
A breath of relief escapes me
Another day, another day more
But an icy hand grips my shoulder
"Hae, we can be together
Together forever, it's what you believed."
Belief without a sense of reality.
You plunged a dagger into my heart
Thinking now death do us part

I wake up screaming...
Cold sweats in fear
Wake up screaming
With dreams so clear
The invisible pain at my chest
Faded as she comes in
To pick me back up and says
Just another dream.

Fight it No Longer

Everywhere I look, our memories remind me of times together. I smile, shrug it off and push you into the back of my mind. Because really, all I want is to be your close friend as promised. I go on with my day, until a day where I break. But I gather myself together, pick myself back up and move along.
Hell, you've made me strong.
--

What will it take for me
To open your eyes
And to make you see
What I’ve got inside

I’m not like the others
Here I though of forever
I’m just another dreamer
But far longer than forever
Right beside you
But hey – that’s okay

Sorry for all the times that he’s lied
No, I can’t imagine what it’s like
Sorry you’re stuck with another sigh
But I promised you – I won’t let you cry

That was another place
And here is another face
That was another time
Can’t blame me for his crimes

But just let me inside
Let me prove things are right
And lay down your walls
Hear as my voice calls
Fight it no longer…

When will you see
That I’ll always be
Your friend – friend
Forever ’til the end

So fight me no more
Don’t walk out the door
Girl, when will you see
I’m not your enemy

Crazy Optimism for a False Reality

I cry, not because I cannot accept things as they are. I cry because I remember her face as she was crying. The words she said. She can never say them again. Not to me anyways. Just feels empty inside.

--

I’m foolish really, naïve
I know of no one but you
And I’ll keep fighting
For what I believe in
And what I believed in
Was you.

I whisper I miss you
When you’re looking at him
You’ll never know my feelings
The beating of my heart dims

I won’t be in your days
Our memories will fade
Yet I look at you, only you
And these tears keep coming

I watch you walk by, still happy
Even though your heart’s gone
I still can’t move on and see
I should stop this and go on

Withstanding the pain each day
These words lingered at my lips
But set in my heart everyday

Alone again, crying for you
Once more, missing you
I want to say I love you
And I’m waiting for you.

My heart aches remembering your tears
When I said I’d take away our fears
Only loved me when you were near

The distance between us
I hate it so
I guess it’s time to say goodbye
Even if I can’t hold you like this again
Even if things can never be the same
I’ll keep on hoping
Because I love you