I Was Wrong; Forgive Me

Everything we do influences someone. That someone could be a random stranger on the street, or that someone could be our loved one.
You know that you have the world when you realize that there's this one person in your life whom you have never lied to.
As for me? I've found that person.
I have faith that I'll never have to lie to that person.
And this faith will never falter.

--

This lie
Born in my blood
And grown within my beating heart
Has lived through my words

This action
Born of impulse
Bred from temptation
Is the mother of my lie

And from this lie
Came birth another
And from another
Came birth a lie

Cast in the shadows
Truth – she’ll never know
What the truth
Really is
Fed with lies
But starved of justice
Obliviousness is the key

And to lie again
The easiest day
Was yesterday
And today
Is just a day away
With these words open
Like a broken record play

And to lie again
To stop her from leaving
And to keep her
Still believing
Guess it can't last

And with this blood
Where the lie was first born
With this tainted heart
I’ll write to her
The truth of my lies

How About a Wish Right Now

Is this a dream
Because I don't remember how I got here
Lying here beside
Holding her hand
Close to mine

This must be a dream
It's too good
To be a reality
Having her
Right here
Loving me

But if this is a dream
Don't let me wake
Let me sleep through the night
With wishes of her
Hearing her heart beat next to mine

An Unworthy Restless Night

Short little blurb that popped in my head at night. This was when...I thought I'd see someone again the next day, but then the morning of they texted me saying they couldn't go.
An unworthy restless night.
--

And I sit here in darkness
Praying morning would sooner come
And he mocks me with time
Making each second slip by
Just to be rewound
Hearing the clock strike 12
Hearing it sound
And I ask again
“Oh God, please let morning come.”

A Writer's Wish. A Lover's Life.

Dreams again
Considers everything and everyone
But this idea’s fading
Logic, and reality
Reason, fantasy
I’ve fallen before
Been hurt before
And yet –
Love gives me wish and hope

Once companions together
And secretly yearned for
Pity that this night
Where the fireworks have stopped
So dark, can’t see
Were on the verge to believe
In love for eternity
Only fallen short one step
Illusions have turned into stars above
With whom lives in love
And who buries love
Where are the heavens?
The stars, the angels
Can they not hear my voice?
Fearful rising
Will be the cause of disappointment
The rest is in vain
Consequences –
Vanished, completely cut away

Erase the fear
Tear away the vanity
And only when you forget old love
Can you move on
In this life, my very own
I can’t break the memories
Truth and lies like fickle clouds
With only the sky watching
Where they end up

- End of Another Dream

Tornado Meets a Volcano

Bracket = Second Voice.

If only it would rain
and wash away these tears
Wash away this pain
If only she could hear
The cries of my heart
Longing for her love
Once more again
Longing for her touch
--

[Don't know what you've done again.
Not again.]

It's storming and thundering
The sky ready to pour
My phone rings
I answer it,
Hoping it was her call
But no, just another
Mono-toned operator
Tellin' me this: “Just leave her.”

[But listen,
You got me stuck here believin'
That when I found you
And when you found me
The words that lingered
Were “Always meant to be”
Together and forever
It's what we believed
But I guess it was subliminally
Hinted that someday reality
Would wreck this fantasy

And leave me with nothing
To hold onto.]

Set Your Spirit Free

Our fantasy, insanity
'Cause since you left
Please come on back
Pain in my chest, I can't see
Oh shit, more flashing lights
Another heart attack

And it's so wrong
'Cause I felt that somehow
This could work - now
But if with him is
Where you belong
That's okay, 'cause
Our chapter's done
This story goes on

Even if you're not my baby
And not here with me
“All I want is to
set your heart free.”

We used to tease and fight
And laughter felt so right
Teach me how to catch
This falling star
Ever since we've been apart
Tell me: What am I
Supposed to do~

My beating heart
I can't control
Call 911!
Emergency before I let it go

And I Dreamt of Her

Temptations one too many
The things you can see
I understand too little

Predict for the long dark night
Until the morning we'll know

Companions one too many
Roads worn and weary
We leave behind too little

I just woke from this dream
I remember laughing
Now why am I crying
Reality hit me it seems

Mirrored illusions
Flower in the mist
Almost as real as our heartbeat

If I don't wake from this dream
Tears clearly rolling down my cheek
And yet now I'm laughing
At my stupid fantasy

Hatred one too many
Mocking my insanity
Only love not enough

- End of a Dream.