Really random poem.
This cocky main character from a drama I was watching inspired me. He's such an asshole but still is wooed over. So I don't know, thought it was pretty funny.
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Hey you! Look at me.
Yeah I know that I'm
Always in your head, Oh!

"What should I do?"
Your heart's running fast
So lost without a clue
No idea what's going on
Hah. Let's just move along.

Turning up the music now
Everything's so loud
When I'm around
You can't neglect me
You'll feel so empty

Baby, listen to my confession
Just nod, if you want me
Say, if you want me
What you want me to do
Want me to do to you.

You're my everything
If my heart can't have you.
I'll stop. It won't beat.
I fixed myself to suit you.
Promise to be good
Oh you'll really go crazy
"Be my angel and
Set me free!
Please! Someone just end this
Maybe it's all in my fantasy.
Maybe it's all just me."

Save My Soul Tonight

Tick Tock Tick Tock
Minute hand stuck
It's the final countdown
And we're just out of luck
Listening to the sound
Of time slipping away -

What could I do or say
Words to make you stay
Wishing time could be rewound
Cold air around me closing in
Suffocating, noises drown
Angels' heavenly hymns

Will you save my soul...
Tonight

Read it and Scram

This might seem rude to ask, but...How do you sleep at night knowing that there's hearts that you've broken without effort? The hearts that you've broken because of your "help". The friendships you've torn apart. The love that was lost. Some things can't be brought back
Thank you for one thing though, because of you...I got the courage to just get up, go and just do it. Things do really happen for a reason.
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Maybe someday we'll cease to believe
In the words we have said today
Believed in forever, so naive
Though our hearts may ache
Somewhere, someday...
In happiness
We'll live one day at a time.

I'm tired of hiding
Behind these shadows
Listen to the melody
Of this broken cello
Know that we're pretending
With our own feelings
Now what's worse?
Now there's you.
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I swear, please, can't you just
Get out of our faces
Things aren't yours to discuss
You're trying to hook her up
With some other guy
And God, while I
Am standing by
Thinking, "Seriously?...
What the FUCK."
--

How about you slow down
Take a walk in my shoes now
And soon I hope you see
What it's like to be me
Here, let's trade shoes
And see what you put us through.

Stars

I sit here looking up to
The many stars and the moon
That are watching over you
I listen and converse
Through their whispers and my words
With the angels above
Asking them of favours
To help me look after you

And I know that every night
At eleven-eleven
I'd be here praying
Wishin' and wishin'
For your dreams to come true

You're gone, not by my side
I'm lost, please go and find
My heart, where'd it go
It's still with you since you left
Just come back home

Is He Perfect?

My brother, don't hurt.
I've walked through these shoes. I know the pain.
It's not worth it. So smile.
--

Is he an angel, just perfect
Is he everything you ever wanted?
Is he just what you wished for?
Didn't you always ask of me more?

I see you with someone new
My heart sinks, I can't bear
I can't ever expect you to
To ever come back to me
You walk by without a care
All that you want, need
You can get it from him

But...
I'll smile and make do
It happens when I think of you
I'll smile like there's no tomorrow
And somehow wish away all the sorrow

I won't let myself go
Down this painful road
Not this again, never, no

Please forget our memories...
Please forget our memories and never
Come back to me.

In Reply

Someone amazing gave me a note today with a poem.
I haven't been writing much lately because I've lost my words. Pretty much been starstruck to the point where I'm just having trouble saying how I feel.
She just takes my breath away, you know?
And always puts a smile on my face...
I don't know how to put a smile on hers, but she knows exactly how to put one on mine. I love her for that.
Best to love as friend before as lovers right?
This is such a messy rant, but anyways, here's my reply to her poem.
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I'm happy where I am
And even when I fade away
You pick me up, fix me
'I love you' is all I can say

Wish I could show you how
To you, I want to say more
But, I'm at a loss of words
Never felt this way before

Ray of Light

Things that I remember. Each day a piece of our memories replay in my mind. When we were friends, when we were more, and when we're friends again, these memories remind me how much I cared for her.

There's always someone, in your life...in my life. That someone always has a smile on their face. A smile that not even the world can wipe away. She taught me so many things: about life, about her, and finally...about myself.
Even when the clouds come in, when the sky is ready to cry, just remembering her words make things okay.
"Does it hurt?" I asked her.
"It doesn't because I don't let it hurt."

To Emma.
She's so brave. Her bravery gives me the courage to do something I would have never imagined. Hey life, I'm ready when you are.