The Words I Never Say, The Words to Make You Stay

I always look to my calendar, looking forward to when you come home. In my head, each time, I would have a speech, something to say to you.

Christmas -

"I've been alone with you inside my mind,
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips
A thousand times...
Is it me you're looking for?" - Hello by LR
I said I don't know how to catch a falling star, but for you I tried and once more I'm trying again.

Reading Week -

Was the experience with me so bad that you want to push it away? Was there absolutely nothing to hold onto, nothing for you to stay?
I don't need this. I was promised more. I was promised a close friend. My whole world is thrown upside down because of you.

Summer - I'll write it here, because I know I'll never say it.

I'm sorry, that I let you go, that I didn't fight hard enough for you.
I haven't slept well since you left. I go to bed and I can't sleep, thinking that I'm going to wake up and you're not anywhere near. My brain won't shut up with our memories.
I'm sorry we went too fast, I was just scared to let you go. I was scared of you leaving.

I'm sorry I'm so in love with you. And I will spend every moment I can telling you that.

I know that I bail. When things are hard, I walk away. But it's been more than half a year and I'm still waiting. I want to be a good man in the storm. Someone who won't walk away. Someone who you can depend on. I am a good man in the storm, I know I can be.

Give me a chance, because I want to believe that miracles are born from impossibilities.

Childish

I'm like the child down below
Reaching for the sky
Regretting I let you go

I wish and I pray
Tears stream down my cheek
Wishing for you to stay