Crazy Optimism for a False Reality

I cry, not because I cannot accept things as they are. I cry because I remember her face as she was crying. The words she said. She can never say them again. Not to me anyways. Just feels empty inside.

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I’m foolish really, naïve
I know of no one but you
And I’ll keep fighting
For what I believe in
And what I believed in
Was you.

I whisper I miss you
When you’re looking at him
You’ll never know my feelings
The beating of my heart dims

I won’t be in your days
Our memories will fade
Yet I look at you, only you
And these tears keep coming

I watch you walk by, still happy
Even though your heart’s gone
I still can’t move on and see
I should stop this and go on

Withstanding the pain each day
These words lingered at my lips
But set in my heart everyday

Alone again, crying for you
Once more, missing you
I want to say I love you
And I’m waiting for you.

My heart aches remembering your tears
When I said I’d take away our fears
Only loved me when you were near

The distance between us
I hate it so
I guess it’s time to say goodbye
Even if I can’t hold you like this again
Even if things can never be the same
I’ll keep on hoping
Because I love you

Maybe It's All For The Best

Dedicated to my brother, hope he soon can move on and forget her.
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I swallow my sigh
Again you’re just another
Another face I fell for
With lights turned off
Darkness surrounds me
From you I saved my heart
Though piece by piece
Slowly it dies
From our memories

But soon I’ll move on
By forgetting you
And the late dawn
Wakes to a new day

Morning rises without my love
But I’ll dream of a new one
I’ll dream with my greedy heart
Another one to play the part

Even after countless times
Of heartbreaks and sighs
I’ll have a heart stronger
Strong enough to recover
Yeah, I’m so over you

I now see flowers bloom beautifully
The beauty in life I missed
Because my eyes saw only you
If only then I understood
Things so easily
Good things hidden in your shadow
What I realize at this moment is
The power to love someone
Who is going to promise me, forever

I’ll live my life, faithful
With no promises of lies
I’ll move on with hope
And when these tear drops stop
I’ll understand that parting
Was for the best for both hearts

And yet I'll say,
"I love you."

Memories Replay

And I'm lost late at night
When darkness eats away at the light
I lie alone, awake
With our memories replaying
My heart races again
With our first kiss
My heart lightens again
With your first touch
The embers in my soul
Rekindled by your love
I'll never forget
My heart, mind, soul
Won't let me forget
And I lie awake
On this dark lonely night
Wondering where you are
Wondering...wondering
What a sight.

I Was Wrong; Forgive Me

Everything we do influences someone. That someone could be a random stranger on the street, or that someone could be our loved one.
You know that you have the world when you realize that there's this one person in your life whom you have never lied to.
As for me? I've found that person.
I have faith that I'll never have to lie to that person.
And this faith will never falter.

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This lie
Born in my blood
And grown within my beating heart
Has lived through my words

This action
Born of impulse
Bred from temptation
Is the mother of my lie

And from this lie
Came birth another
And from another
Came birth a lie

Cast in the shadows
Truth – she’ll never know
What the truth
Really is
Fed with lies
But starved of justice
Obliviousness is the key

And to lie again
The easiest day
Was yesterday
And today
Is just a day away
With these words open
Like a broken record play

And to lie again
To stop her from leaving
And to keep her
Still believing
Guess it can't last

And with this blood
Where the lie was first born
With this tainted heart
I’ll write to her
The truth of my lies

How About a Wish Right Now

Is this a dream
Because I don't remember how I got here
Lying here beside
Holding her hand
Close to mine

This must be a dream
It's too good
To be a reality
Having her
Right here
Loving me

But if this is a dream
Don't let me wake
Let me sleep through the night
With wishes of her
Hearing her heart beat next to mine